whats your cause to champion?

so i could've said that i was fooled into the training last weekend
i went there with the mindset that it was all about advertising
that they will teach us how to write strategic briefts, creative works, how to handle people that you directly work with & how to all come together to manage the brand to its ultimate potential
then on the first day
that was all thrown out of the window
we were asked to explore ourselves

i know right? what has this got to do with anything?

but it somehow was like this small life lesson that they were teaching us

they asked us to tap into all these things that we were pushing away for the longest time
and im the biggest cynic
"you can't make people want to resolve things that they dont/you can't force it/how do you know that this will be the right move for an individual/dont hold us all under the same school of thought"
but i thought
"hey, ive given up my weekend, im here, might as well try it and give 100%"
so i did

so i put doubt and cynicsm aside and tried it out and i managed to feel alot of things that i had boxed away and forgot about
i did deal with them and i did share them
which was rather foreign to me really...sharing my ideas, hopes and fears with a group of strangers? wtf right? but it felt really good in the end because:

1. i saw how all these unresolved issues i had had affected my life subconsciously
2. i understood them
3. i dealt with them
4. i realised that everyone feels as vulnerable and weak as i do at one point or another
5. that everyone has issues
6. that you should take ownership over everything that happens to you

i know this post is very wishy washy and very new age but honestly, once you push all the cynicism aside and actually try it, it does work. its very empowering and brought alot of clarity to what i saw as rather fuzzy and grey.

its a challenge to what you have already perceived as the norm and how to work. and if you want to stay safe, then keep that way. but once you break everything down eg. your judgment, your insecurities and your fears then you can actually feel a little lighter & a whole lot of possibilities will come your way.

baby steps

xL

tonight we dine in hell

threehundred was amazing
besides the fact that were 300 hot bodies running around
in NOTHING but leather underware
....
crap, that was pretty much the pull for me
but the CGI was fab - just amazing
only a blue screen to film behind? NO WAY
in only 60 days?
i felt like being jakun too and giving a standing ovation after the movie was over
:D

i know i haven't blogged in ages....
its just that there is nothing to blog about
im at work and im at work and then im at work again
the weekend practically flies by, but then again, so does the week
which means ill be turning 23 *shock* soon
andden the next thing i know, ill be 50
then on my death bed
my only comfort is that seems to be the normal cycle for every one in general
so if i suffer, you suffer
mwhahahaha

i can only entertain you with what has entertained me so far since i blogged last, which were significant enough in my life, but not significant enough to write an entry about:

1. they opened the mind and body studio at the gym - which means more pilates and yoga
the aim is to go 4 times a week - 2 cardio sessions and 2 strength/stretch sessions . ive only managed 3 times so far

2. i managed to get my itrip to work in harmony with my ipod and radio
so no more malay woman interrupting my little bopping sessions to fergalicious

3. rosebud has great stamina - during the week, she's in another country and during the weekend, she has an overnight in genting . respektah

4. mid week madness is necessity in everyone's life - every wednesday, kunt.um, boobs, gayve, mun and myself gather at boobs' hse, talk ABSOLUTE SHIT, eat ABSOLUTE SHIT, and drink ABSOLUT ;) geddit? okay, it would have worked if we drank absolut, but we are of a much more higher standard than that and drink grey goose . the aim was to play scrabble, but the goosey goosey gander kinda gets in the way

5. we found the elusive bayou chicken pie disguised now as the empress chicken pie. to ensure you die a happy person, you have to eat it

6. we found casa vino, of which they serve you great wine, for a great price, let you make noise and order food from the nearby eateries for you too . can you say heaven?

7. 300 made me happy for 3 days straight

8. i have training in genting next weekend for the WHOLE weekend. 3 whole days in aid to better myself in the advertising industry. 3 whole days of my life that i cant reclaim back. 3 whole days of which i have to be social. fark.

9. kanye west is coming down to kl on the 8th of april. and you can be rest assured that im going to party it down hard with the mat mots and the kak siti-s can you say "orang cari emas" ?

10. im finally done with 5 seasons of Gilmore Girls. no more lorelai, no more rory, no more luke, no more dean, no more logan, no more taylor, no more kirk :( i need season 6

11. im starting heroes now that im done with gilmore girls

so thats the update to my life
its pretty kinda pathetically sad really
no hardcore parties
no jetsetting life
no accumulation of obscene amounts of wealth
no rock n roll

sniff

until the sky decides to turn green and the oceans to turn yellow

xL

secret vows

ive been going for spin class

they turn off the fans
the class becomes even hotter
and there are 30 ppl there
you start smelling weird smells
sweat droplets are literally all over the floor
you start feeling faint
but you look to the side and see a 45 yr old woman going for it for her life
so you turn it up, thinking you can handle it
you can't
you start seeing stars and the music is trippin with your mind
your apparell is literally soaked with sweat
" i will stop smoking...i will stop eating lard...i will stop drinking...i will exercise more"
starts going through your mind
after 45 minutes
its all over red rover
and you, the sucker, goes back two days later for a little bit more

idiotville
population: 1
me

xL