ni hao ni hao

so i is back from china
and it was a dope, but rather fast and rushed trip
left friday morning and came back monday afternoon
you go figure it out
and this was our schedule
friday: left kl at 6am + 1 hour of air asia delay. arrived shenzhen at 12pm. dim sum (shao, you would have freaked the fuck out man...it was that good) and shopping till 5.30pm. the never ending journey to the hills of which we arrived at 1am. whoa right?
saturday: rather quick tour of the orchids, the golf course, the lakes and the mineral water factory - i know right. back down to shenzhen arriving at 8pm. dinner & totals passed out
sunday: macau...that was pretty dope cos i won money gambling and the food kicked ass (read: portuguese egg tarts & the best fried wan tans ever.really.ever)
monday: back to kl

so im pretty freaking exhausted now and im back at work
i think im coming down with a cold as well
but nevertheless the last week was pretty goddamn eventful
i saw him which was pretty nice, although rather hectic
then off to china
i dont think that i can make it as a full time jetsetter
i would like to, but i think my body will crash big time

i would like to elaborate on how much china has changed ever since i stepped foot there 10 years ago (thanks rosebud), but my brain is pretty fuzzy at the moment
i can only do very basic tasks, like walk and talk (but not at the same time)
this doesnt feel as bad as when i got back from tioman
but its on the same level of stupidity and incompetence

productivity level today : 5

xL

fabulousity

so hussy's 23rd was a blast
it was a great night with great company and great food and booze
i think it can come down to one of the best nights that ive had in a while
of just talking shit and catching up
it was like an extended mid-week-maddness session with extra peeps
:D
well done hussy, i guess it was worth the looooong drive to hulu ampang
remember, it was done only because it was your birthday
so dont think that kunt.um and i have gotten soft at our old age

so just a small update of which anyone of whom matters to me already knows...
ive been looking at other jobs
ive been asked to jump by two companies since ive started
and that was hella swell
and ive applied to another two
all have offered and ive turned them all down
why why why you ask?
because my current company, has finally given me my increment!!!
and that couldn't feel any better really
just being recognised that you are worth a hella lot more than you're getting now
so ive decided to stay put for the time being
until a job that i deem worthy lands in my lap
and them two deem that i have an unusual way of wanting to be happy
so i've decided to stay comfortable for the mean time

and today, i finally get my tattoo all done
it will be COMPLETE
and i can finally show those across the oceans what it looks like
so happy now small eyes? you get to finally see it

im on freaking cloud 9 at the moment
its like all this craziness that has been happening around me is falling into place
however, there is still one client that is still rather nasty
and i wish she would kneel over and die ASAP
whuvver. we get one miracle at a time
im off to china on friday @ 6am i.know.right
that means KLIA @4.45am
which also means her brochure can die a natural death in my absence
fucktards

xL
i'll see you peeps after china
and dayve? you keep practicing "the-synchronized-dancing-within-a-confined-space" without me okay, i expect that when i get back, you'll give 300% :D

its cool to be anti-cool

to hussy:
HAPPY 23RD TOMORROW!
MAY YOU HAVE ANOTHER FABULOUS YEAR OF....
scuba-diving/sky-diving/not keeping your mouth shut/driving mika to his full potential/showing them fools how to drive on the road/pushing the limits of every.single.thing.you.do/grey goose & belvederes/hot men (maybe you'll have to leave kl for this)/and hopefully, finding what you really want in your career, either that, or take over the banking industry.whuvver.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

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i believe this should be on every.single.person's.playlist
more some than others :)

Smile
Like you've got nothing to prove
No matter what you might do
There's always someone out there cooler than you
I know that's hard to believe
But there are people you meet
They're into something that is too big to be
Expressed
Through their clothes
And they'll put up with all the poses you'll throw
And you won't
Even know that they're not sizing you up
They know your mom fucked you up
Or maybe let you watch too much TV
But they'll still look in your eyes
To find the human inside
You know there's always something in there to see
Beneath
The veneer
Not everybody made the list this year
Have a beer
Make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
But there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, you're the shit but you won't be here for long
Oh, there's always someone cooler than you
Yeah, there's always someone cooler than you
Now that I've got the disease
In a way I'm relieved'
Cause I don't have to stress about it like you do
I might just get up and dance
Or buy some acid-wash pants
When you don't care then you got nothing to lose
And I won't
Hesitate
'Cause every moment life is slipping away
It's ok
Life is wonderful
Life is beautiful
We're all children of
One big universe
So you don't have to be a chump
- ben folds' 'there's always someone cooler than you'

yeah okay
im super can die bored at work
its a period where i just have to wait
andden everything comes crashing all at once
and i end up drowning once again
so drama. i know. i like.

and in addition to the events of november:
4. dayve's 23rd...your theme should be prom night...happy? happy? happy?
5. KANCILS tomorrow :D

xL

your incompetence....

in·com·pe·tence Pronunciation[in-kom-pi-tuhns] Pronunciation Key - noun
- the quality or condition of being incompetent; lack of ability.

1. dwindles my faith in mankind
2. makes me pray that darwin's theory proves true and that i will experience it one day
3. pisses the living hell out of me
4. allows me to understand that lack of efficiency that plagues you
5. makes me wonder about what is stored in the space where a normal human stores a brain
6. would never allow me to trust you with your choices
7. makes me second guess you time and time and time again
8. restores my acceptance and belief in hitmen
9. makes me hope that my children will never have to meet yours
10. allows my lack of creative ability to grow in planning ways to kill you off

im not anti-wedding, im anti-stupid

xL

certified

wooohoooo!
finally, after all the procrasination and the mishaps
im finally a certified open water diver!
and it wasn't as i thought, where you get it and like "blah"
i am genuinely happy that i got it and the time off was fabulous
it was such a great and well-deserved break
and although it was only one night, i think we all came back rejuvenated
i mean, just the sound of the ocean and the blue sea and the hot sun
:D
what else do you want in life really?
i was contemplating throwing everything in and setting up shop there

and woohoo we did see nemo, over and over again
and turtles and we had a school of goat fish just literally swim around us
it was like whooaaa cos whilst thousands were swimming around us,
we just heard the vibrations of their fins
of course, i was literally staring, super kampung-like
so im happy to say that the rush and the pure exhaustion was worth it
we were literally running on 2 hours sleep on saturday when we did our first 3 dives
and by the time 2 beers were consumed at 10pm, we almost passed out walking to the room
and hussy was a fab driver, although it was intense on the trunk road at 4.30am
seeing strange lights and driving on almost no petrol
but she did an awesome job, so thanks much hussy

so now im back here at my desk, totally not focusing
my head still feels like we're on the ocean cos it doesnt seem to be seeing straight
im suffering because i have about 40 sandfly bites all over my body
however, i got a tan :D so the itchiness seems to be worth it
so what are our next plans to achieve the rush again?
SKYDIVING
uh huh, so we're planning that for december :D

so whats in store for november then?
1. hussy's monochrome 23rd on the 3rd
2. china from the 9th till the 12th of november
3. i want to go to sipadan but we'll see how work pans out

ps: smalleyes, if you want to do it, we'll teman you to an island!

xL - a certified OWD :D

think what?.....

so we're going we're going we're goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooing!
thanks to hussy, cos she's driving....we get to goooooooooooooooooo
the last few days have been....
shall we fly/drive/take the bus/swim/hitchhike
now we're going!!!!!!!
2 full days of sun and sea and sun and more sea
and this time, we get to go down and find nemo and squirt and dory
:D :D :D :D

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

im just happy that i might possibly get a tan

xL

snap crackle pop !

so we are supposed to go scuba diving this weekend
i was all amped for the sun, the sea and the blue blue waters
but then, the ferry fire tragedy happened
and now everything has been thrown into shambles
i dont even know where to start pointing blame
warrggggghhhh
now i dont even know when i'll ever find nemo
but nevertheless, this weekend has to involve some sun
its been raining crazy mofo GBB over the last week
personally, id rather contend with the thunderstorms rather than the haze that plagued us this time last year :)

i evidently missed the blogger environmental day thing
so what am i doing for the environment?
refusing to use plastic bags unless i have to, switching off all switches if unnecessary and have also switched to using blackle.com which is the environmentally friendly version of google
which i think you guys should convert too, because it does make sense
hey, at least its something!
and as we all know, im a big fan of the 3x a week hair wash
:D

kunt.um had her birthday yesterday in singapore
happy 23rd donkfus
and we celebrated doing what we do best on saturday night
we hit asian heritate row and had opinions about every.single.person
no one escaped unscathed
the 'opinions' that flew around were:
1. oh my god, how can they get that fat? which led on to i dont know dude, if i'm that fat, i would not be wearing that...how do they breathe?...do you think she can see her toes?
2. oooooo D list celeb!
3. dude, so like you know that person over there...yeah so, i heard right....
4. skanky ho slut
5. skanky ho slut
6. what the fuck is she wearing
and a numerous amount of other terms that if i put up here,
my ass would probably be hauled to court quick fast
and no, duh, we dont judge

i really honestly have nothing of substance to say on this damn blog
its really just for me to pass time cos its the end of the year
and every single thing is slowing down
they should be done with this year already and lets all move on to 2008
i believe that ive come to look at my blog as my own personal diary
so that when im 70 and cant remember who my children are*
i can look back to the days when i thought i knew it all

oh and i havent had the heart yet to wear my shoes
i think that they are too dope for the streets of kl
especially now when the rain is falling GBB and the drains are overflowing
sexy times right?

you bring out the fuck you in me - heylia james

xL

*if i ever for some reason decide to conceive a spawn into this godforsaken planet of environmental/mental decay & of britney spears flashing her vajayjay

so I had to did, what I had to did

officially in love with common again
he's just gots it
i think im going to go through my ghetto phase again
:)

went to the pavillion yesterday for luncheon
and it was pretty nice
could possibly send me into poverty
and they have stores that have never touched kl soil before!
so no doubling up on what the next mall has
they have...marcjacobs, alexandermcqueen, kiehls, paulfrank, juicy couture, shanghaitang & godiva ...all exceeding my current bank balance

im seriously bored at work
there is work but then again, its not at a crazy pace
so i have time to sit down here and write absolute crap
that will entertain no one else but me :D
lucky you for reading through my nonsense

ive been watching oodles of american tv
especially at the moment, brothers and sisters
and i swear, each episode they consume at least 5 bottles of wine
which leads me to want wine
im going to go with the theory of subliminal advertising
rather than how easily influenced i am by television
who am i kidding? kunt.um eats a big burger after GG

I walked in the crib, got two kids
And my baby mama late (uh oh uh oh uh oh)
So I had to did, what I had to did
Cause I had to get (duh-ough duh-ough duh-ough)
I'm up all night, getting my money right
Until the blue and white (po po! po po! po po!)
Now the money coming slow, but a least a ni**a know
Slow motion better than (no-oh! no-oh! no-oh!)

xL

dont die on me

so my trusty ol' ipod of only a year has decided to freeze on me
the screen isn't blank, there is no unsmiley face
its just goddamn frozen
and yes technogeeks, i have restored her
i re-uploaded. i re-installed. i re-ed every.freaking.thing
and now, its probably even worse than before
the ipod goddess has shunned me into freaking misery
and no, i dont think that im being a drama queen okay
i take her everywhere with me and i mean everywhere
the gym. work. the car. shopping. manicuring
and now....no more
*big motherfucking sigh*
and yes duh, im going to the ipod shop during lunch to figure it all out
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raya was uber lazy
i didnt do much at all
i think it had to be the laziest consecutive 3 days of my life
im nearly done with brothers & sisters, which is just crazy drama
i went to the gym twice
i hung out with g-ma enough to make me the golden grandchild
other than that, the only time i socialised was at the dvd marathon
and at la bods , where thankfully, our friendships are still intact after the monopoly session
i felt uber unproductive :D

on the other hand...i cant believe archat made it onto the bbc news
what the flying...but then again, given the context it was in, no one is really surprised

i need to now go spend time with my ipod and persuade her out of this state
and yes, im at work...and no, evidently it doesnt take priority in these trying times

xL

so now what?

so i was reading hussy's post on how we used to be so young
and im sure that we've all learnt a heck of a lot from when we were 13
it's true, we still do yearn to go back to when things were simpler
when our only problems were finding ways to rebel
and figuring how we're going to get through school and how necessary sejarah was
and now here we are, our 20s, our so called youth
where it's time to figure it all out and carve our paths to immortality
where we have to just know it by now
know what our 5 year plan is, when to get that promotion, when to pro-create
i guess like every life lesson, there isn't a manual that you look up
so we've all stepped into the realm of the workforce and now what?
what security has our degree thrown out for us to fall back on?
or is it really true that whatever you've learnt is thrown out the window
and common sense & hard work really now has to play a part

sometimes i guess it all gets too complex and you just want to sit back
and take a deep breath and have a fucking good look
i don't think there should be a manual
cos i think that you have to take things as they are
and make the best of where you stand right now
i mean, character building and all that shit right?
i take great comfort in the fact that you guys are all walking the same path
maybe at different times and degrees, but yet, the same direction
of that uncertainty and hesitance but nevertheless, taking the plunge anyway
of when you have to hold your breath and just jump in
i think that we've all made that leap in some way or another
and we're all still alive
die die la right? :D

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so what's happened in the last week and the days to come?
1. raya is here! hussy and kunt.um are off the fasting bandwagon as of 7-ish tonight!
2. raya is here! so we have 3 days off to laze around with dvds, to tan, to eat, to drink and to rest our tired working souls...esp gayve who's worked his ass off
3. pher is officially off to be a singaporean food scout tomorrow
4. im nearly there with my scuba license...one more class and off we go at the end of the month
5. work is nicely paced...as it is at the end of the year...raya/deepavali/christmas...thats right
6. tv is back on. we've got greys/house/californication/ugly betty to entertain us...along with gossip girl...yeah to all those haters that laughed when i went to the young adult section of borders...i recognised skanky greatness!

so selamat hari raya fools...enjoy...if not come and hang with me...i'll be surrounded with dvds and alcohol and food and sun :D

xL

the new love

so i made it to the gardens on saturday night with kunt.um
which was pretty ambitious
because going to a mall on the weekend is just dumb
and going there during the night, precisely, buka puasa time,
well..that just takes the cake for stupidity
:D


however, it was like the gods of shopping decided to bless me
for visiting their altar of worship
and blessed me with the most gorgeous pair of shoes ever
it was like love at first sight
and the thing is, i never ever buy sneakers
well i used to, in melbies, because it was like the most comfortable thing
and you know, winter and rain and shizzle like that
and i probably haven't bought a pair since then
so lo and behold, my new love

i know right *sigh*

xL

i dont want to be ordinary

so ive encountered major internal conflict this week
it was like internal world war 3
and not like a war with biochemical warfare
the old school bomb kinda thing, so it was prolonged
what an analogy

i am officially announcing that i'll be in kl for 2008 :D
and i didn't want to actually write it here until i told a certain someone
and i told her this morning....
although she found out already, as we know some peoples' mouths are rather big
not that it's a huge thing, but i wanted to tell her myself
-_-
but im pretty content with my decision, irregardless of the conflict
i weighed out the pros and cons and im never one to regret
so even if it turns out to be one of the worst choices ive made
then at least i still have my masters to fall back on and
a trip to europe summer 2008 :D
yeah huh fo sho its still on with a goddamn vengence

work has finally slowed down and thank fuck for that
im halfway there to getting my scuba license
ive already done my theory and i need to do my pool session this weekend
boobs is tremendously happy with this as she now has a buddy
we're off 26th - 28th october to dive off johor
and crossing fingers at the end of november, sipadan

oh and i need to vent big time and where i believe manners should be put aside
i was at RPM challenge yesterday and this dude sat down next to me
and he was there in dreadlocks and a beanie -_-
and this heavy gear (like he's some kinda hip hopper)
and i was like...fo sho this dude is gonna sweat GBB and be all stanky
so i made the decision that i didn't care what he thought
that i deserve to smell non-putrid air laced with BO
so i got off my bike and climbed onto one across the room
i mean...FFS, i already have to endure shitty clients
i do not need to endure stanky people during my personal time

the pavillion and the gardens have opened
more places for us to spend what little money we have after food and alcohol
whooopppeee :D

xL

f.r.i.d.a.y*

*a total whinge post

thank fucking god of all mercy that its friday
if this carried on for another 1 day, i would collapse
im currently running on an average of 3.5 hours of sleep for the last 3 days
ever since i got back from MC
they have worked me to the core
and i am ready to collapse

and i would give anything for a good meal as well
starbucks and a sausage roll does not cut it for me anymore
snacking on roll ups at 10pm just to keep the energy up is not healthy
neither is the constant 'what can we order for dinner ah?'
maccas, pizza hut & dominos are off my palate for the next month

the sickest thing is that i miss my rpm classes
i look like crap cos there is no colour in my face
and i look like death will fall upon me within the next hour
i want to tan but i can't cos i got myself inked
so yeah, my timing with things aint so freaking hawt

however, for those who don't already know ...
i got into my masters for london next year
now i just have to figure out if i want to accept or defer
i know, so painful life choices are, but after this campaign
that will be the only thing on my mind
oh and when to get my tattoo coloured in
its so freaking pretty its crazy GBB

okay. im off to see ah tan aka jimmy aka ah kong aka dvd man
who parks himself in the office to sell DVDs on fridays
we all don't really know his real name
all we know is that he sells DVDs/alcohol/toothbrushes
so im going to find myself some entertainment for tonight
then im going to see the client
then im going home...to my bed....

yes okay, going home really does excite me
:D :D :D

xL

like shit run over twice

the campaign is still not over
but that doesnt fucking matter
cos im at home
suffering from the worst attack of gastric that one could get
and to top it off
im severely bored and its only 12pm
i dont know what im going to do with myself now

and the worst thing is....
stop reading here low shao/pher/boobs
...i have no appetite 0_0
i believe i could entertain myself with ice cream and fast food
but i dont feel it
i just dont
im most depressed with myself at the moment

however, just to update everyone.....
ive got my tattoo and its spankin'
im really in love with it, and everytime i look at it,
my love grows even more :D
maybe its all relative
like how a mother loves a child
i would probably hate that child, but the mother loves it kinda thing
yeah, same difference

im talking shit and i need to go find something to eat
cos if not, according to the good doctor
my stomach lining will be eaten away
and i could get a stomach ulcer
always fun stuff

lowshao- i is missing you and i hope that u're settling in well there!


xL

yup, thats right

not to be rude

but don't contact me unless:
1. someone is dying
2. i contact you
3. it's sunday...actually, there is a longer disclaimer following this

and this message will prevail until september the 21st

why?
1. i have a campaign going on now and really, i dont think that i need to elaborate

and what if you do contact me?
1. prepare for the largest verbal assault you will ever receive - hell yes i'll bring your mother, sister, brother, grandmother and grandfather into it
2. dont expect an apology - you probably dont deserve it

and what if you're bored and alone?
1. MWHAHAHAHAH sorry if i gave off the impression that i cared then

on the other hand - kudos to pher on getting singapore! well done pherminator, you're one step closer to owning a spanking car and condo. triple c's always get the chick my friend
and no, this excitement doesnt mean you can call me

xL

damned if you do; damned if you dont

i actually made it to one year working
it is pretty much exactly a day to the year ago i started
and im still here
sitting at the same desk
doing pretty much the same bloody thing
and i would have assumed that this would have depressed me
but im actually pretty proud that i stayed put for this long
for all it's worth, its going isn't going to look too shabby on paper

now this makes me go through an internal conflict
because now, im done with everything that i need to do by 23
ive done the education - ive got my degree
ive done the work - well im working aren't i
ive halfway done the travel - if i stop now, i wont be at loss
but yet, im still craving the greener side
i cant seem to settle
cos im always wondering the what if's
and the bittersweet-ness of it all is that rose wont hold me back
and besides her, there's no one else i answer to
so i can do what i want to do
but i dont know if thats a good or bad thing, not having boundaries
maybe i need boundaries...but jebus, i'll just break them all
see? its no longer a conflict - its a major internal fucking war

sometimes i think it would be better if i just settle and commit
to one place and build up a good thing there
but as much as i want to
i just cant allow that to happen to me at 23
23! i mean, jebus, i still feel 18
i still feel like i should be running and exploring
rather than sitting still
and look at the ideas that ive been toying with in the last 6 months alone
dog hotel / london / travelling more /
forever bouncing back and forth depending on my mood
dammit la i know how to screw myself over

and this is exactly why i should do this alone
so if i screw up, its only me paying the price for it
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low shao is finally leaving us
after weeks of waiting and holding her breath
she finally gets to fly off this saturday
i cant be anything but happy for her
but...but...who is going to be stupid with me now?
:(
nevermind la, im still going to come low shao
dont you worry your small little eyes
as soon as i settle with a plan, you'll be first to know

xL

try to grow one ball at least

the long weekend is nearly here
4 days off, cos im getting my monday off
4 days of complete self indulgence
4 days of not having to get up at 9am

so they have thrown the concept out of the window
they dont want to infringe on copyright issues
you damned fools, just say you're not brave enough to go with it
that you want to stay in your closed little box forever
that you're not willing to take it to another level
just say it and dont beat around the bush
saying that, im going to come back after my 4 days to hell on earth
so fuck yes im going to enjoy it then

im crazy in love with estranged's itu kamu
thats me supporting the malaysian music scene
oh and along with isaac entry who's voice is really like jack johnson
really wan
serious

ive got nothing to blab about
ive found a new addiction called online shopping
which is really awful because i dont even need to move to spend money
which means, i could just be sitting here and i can go broke
which means, i'll have all these beautiful clothes
and no where to go cos i'll be broke
catch 22 really

the thing told rosebud about her relationship with the stoner
and now rosebud is all flustered because she doesnt know where she went wrong
and has been lecturing me on how not to settle so young
what she doesnt realise
is that its all her fault and that she is really just insulting herself
and im god damn pissed off because she is seriously underestimating us
she might as well be looping us into the same category
as those girls who just slut around and havent even finished their degree
with the hopes of becoming an air stewardess, which is, if you ask me,
is just a prostitute in the air
whatever
respektah to you utilising your vagina to its maximum potential
and may them flaps become so loose you really do fall down that barstool

im off to singapore on friday
to shop and eat and shop and eat and party my life away
all my weeks at the gym
is going to be shot to hell
as im surely going to come back as bloated as a pregnant whale
jesus, what a thought

so selamat hari kemerdekaan to our beloved malaysia
but im off to celebrate it in our neighbouring country

xL

there is no such thing as silver lining

need to vent
my life is over starting last week
im going to have no life till the end of september
and this is the time I chose to be all healthy
to not drink during the week
to detox and be less...umm..toxic
0_0
i know right... shock horror disbelief
who says i dont know perfect timing?

and the best thing is
singapore is confirmed
pher got the act together for us
and tickets are arranged
and jovy is there for accomodation
and i dont even know if i can go

and on top of that
smalleyes is leaving me in aroundabouts 3 weeks
dont go! wait till january 08 and we go together gether
be a friend :)

as so eloquently put, it sucks to be me

xL

the conclusion of santana's maria

im thinking of taking this blog down
i realised that i dont need people to know what im doing all the time
neither do i need to report it all the time
if i needed a cathartic release
i could always just dear diary the motherfucker

so if there are no posts for awhile
you can always just msn or call or sms me
technology is quite amazing nowadays

but before that
a huge thank you
for all the safety nets that all of you have put up around me
i tried them this week and they all worked :)
thanks for listening, thanks for the hugs and thanks for the tissues :)
kleenex must make a killer from break ups
thank you for saying you would be there for me
and thank you for actually being there
thank you for knowing me so well to stop asking when i didnt feel like answering
thank you for sitting by me and holding my hand
i never ever knew that i had this much support
and ironically, i have never felt this loved
thanks to those over the seas, especially you shanti
those little words across the screen never meant so much
and thanks to those nearest to me now
very cliched, but your mere presence comforts me a great deal
especially when we gather with wine and food

so now its time to de-clutter

x L

sweet you rock and sweet you roll

they say karma is a bitch
and hell yes, she is swinging her bat at me hard this time
and now here i am hanging my dirty laundry out
something that i promised myself that i would never do

i know you dont want to talk to me
i know that ive fucked up badly
i know that you're always going to look at me as the one to blame
and ill accept that ive had my share of wrongdoings
but god damn, it still takes two hands to clap in this situation
and you think that i have broken you?
im sitting here, at my desk at 11.30am, about to cry
and i would have never allowed that to happen before
but here i am, all decked out to go in for a presentation
and i cant think about anything else but how this is playing out
you ask me why i always placed you at arms length?
this is why - this is exactly why...so ill never have to crash like this
and here i am crashing like a ton of bricks

so now that it has come to this
where you dont even want to talk to me
where everything you have ever said doesnt seem to matter
because it doesnt hold any strength to your claim
i cant even talk to you because your finger will always be pointing at me
and there are only so many times i can say im sorry
and only so many justifications to be made
before it falls on deaf ears
you hear me tell you that nothing is going on here
and really, nothing is going on here
but somewhere along the line, trust slipped out
and doesnt even think our relationship is worth coming back to

so lo and behold the beginning of the end
id like to try to savour something from this 7 years
but you're not making it easy for me to do so
so now your wish is granted
for us to part where you will walk away blaming me
and ill finally just walk away
because according to you, thats what i do best

you asked for transparency, well here it is, in all her blazing glory
and in my emotional instability
where i make the best of my decisions
im off to london in january
because thats another one of my better traits isnt it?
running away
ive always said that im good at some things and bad at some
so i might as well embrace what im good at at

by the way, if there is anything here you don't understand
please use a dictionary or call someone
but please don't ask any of your friends
as they all seem to be unable to use their brain
to grasp any concept that goes beyond playing someone else's music

xL

unpacking delilah

seriously need to freaking detox
nothing. nada. not a drop of alcohol
we're a horribly disgusting influence upon each other
besides the fact that its slowly deteriorating our kidneys
we're going to be flat broke rather soon
but its fun at the same time....
oh fuck it

thursday: company drink up @ hush; friday: 2 bottles of moscato @ vintry w/pher; saturday: long island jugs @ velvet; sunday: 1 bottle of white @ j&r...
detox session has to start now

its monday morning and its raining
that has to be like god pointing his finger at me and laughing
like its my punishment
as it its not bad enough to get up on a sunny morning
but the offset is that we're watching simpsons:the movie tonight
yaya :D

i had a pot luck at my place on saturday
and we all turned out with the goods
potato salad/fried rice/kfc/maccas/jelly/banana cake
of which smalleyes started an obsessive relationship with
&
1 litre of vodka and pher's maccallans
it was fun cos its been awhile since we all got together
especially with the dancer and actor boyfriend ;)
our own little celebrity couple

which was then progressed onto us splitting up
half to velvet and half to sky/atrium
some say that it was due to miscommunication
id like to blame it on alcohol abuse, okay fine, my own alcohol abuse :)

which then progressed on a rather slow sunday
watching dayve get his 3rd tattoo
and watching myself book for an appointment 0_0
and watching shorty and pher consume another bottle of wine
and watching all of us scoff chili's after that
i watched...mainly cos it was all a little fuzzy and a little exhausting

im finally really enjoying the miracles of wireless
as i have moved coko into my room
blasting amy winehouse and feist via my itunes
im trying to convert my room into a sanctuary of chill
so im off to ikea to buy enough pillows to convert my bed into a day bed
ahhhhhhh

and and and :)
the biggest news is that i went for my interview for masters
and they seemed impressed enough to take me in for 2008
but that would screw up my plans for travelling summer 2008
so now i have to think about things
oh and fill up my application too, and write my statement
but its nice to have that option of 2008/2009
so im pretty happy about that considering i was hungover
so L, how do you strategise your ads at the moment
why should you change the way the ads are executed?
why
why
why
and thank the lords, i managed to come up with somewhat decent answers
the dude seemed pretty impressed
maybe he was hungover too

maybe one day, my dreams will match up with my pay
shaboom shaboom

xL

just because

its times like these
where work isnt too bad
:)

right now?
we're drinking wine and having cakes from just heavenly
&
on thursday is the official company drink up
where we get half of friday off

life really isnt that bad

xL

blah

its monday and the rain hasn't stopped since yesterday morning
and all i wanted to do today was stay in bed
but no
im here at work
it is 4.39pm
i get to leave soon

the weekend was nicely chilled out
on friday, the chocolate buffet was nice and not overly done
i was a little suspicious of the chocolate and scallops
but the chocolate sauced beef was pretty yum
and of course the hot chocolate that was done properly
- you know, melt the bits of chocolate andden pour in the milk kind-
:D
that was satisfying

and on saturday we hit up an balinese restaurant called bora asmara
that was so gorgeous
like, if i wanted a low key wedding, i would have it there
it's so pretttttyyy
the only thing is that the food well sucked
and there was no alcohol to numb my pain of starvation
but there was no black tie after that :)
and it was so nicely chilled out
it was like "ahhhhh"
and there was wine....
of which we decided if chianti is on the list, we order that, no argument

other than that, the weekend was nice and relaxing
of which i spent sunday with su who's back from london
who is making shitloads of money
and the low family at night who adopted me for dinner
because rose abandoned me
i want to go to london and make money and be supremely happy with materialistic goods
but i could never ever work in investment banking
ew

the month is nearly over
i is going to get paid
and going to make myself happy by spending it on something stupid
andden be broke again for the remainding 3 weeks of the month
smart...really smart

xL

a bit of this and a bit of that

another 2.5 more hours until the highly anticipated much needed weeekend :D
noice
and i have big big plans
of sleeping and overindulging
im kinda wondering why im so freaking tired
and ive put it down to
watching transformers and harry potter on monday and tuesday night
as everything else was so not out of the ordinary
i was contemplating the gym this evening
and then i was like, its okay not to be too ambitious

transformers was freaking excellently fantastic
i think my mouth was like gaping open the whole time
i was such a geek for like 2.5 hours
and harry potter was alright too
but im biased and will forever be entertained by the pothead
he's getting a little emo
but a bitchslap here and there will put him back into place

my sister - see, ive matured and decided to personalise her
has left the country back to her motherland of weed and laziness
but not after rose creating mass havoc in klia for overbooking and
pushing her onto a later flight
MAS is a piece of shit
malaysia seriously cannot boleh with idiots like that
damned complacent fools
visit malaysia 2007 isnt working out very well now is it

im going to entertain my stomach later and OD on chocolate at the hilton :)
oh yums
a whole buffet....of chocolate
im going to get diabetes but thats okay
no pain no gain

and tomorrow night, we're going to no black tie
just because we dont feel velvet anymore
and thats why i love kl
cos if you are ever sick of one genre of entertainment, there is another to hop along to
either that or something new opens every 3 months
so you're guaranteed to never be terribly bored

however, im kinda tempted to just go into lockdown this weekend and read :D
ooooo big big big geek
i just found the most entertaining writer
and true to my word, it aint chick lit
his name is jasper fforde - double 'f's
and i just read the fourth bear
and its about nursery rhyme crimes
so evidently this one had to do with goldilocks and the 3 bears
its absolutely hilarious and i swear he is on drugs
i love it when creative ppl are on drugs
they come up with amazing shit

and another is haruki murakami
and he's just a beautiful writer
he just sees all these normal feelings that people feel in such a different light
its a little depressing and sometimes you do wish that they would just commit suicide
but he's amazing nonetheless
and the best thing is, its all translated as he writes in japanese
so it would be amazing to know japanese and read it the way he originally wrote it

wargh okay im blabbling on
i have no work at work and im writing shit
pherminator says i need to get a job
he's just jealous of my 3 hour lunches and dvd sessions
pfft

percy's at the doctors now
i told rose not to talk about getting a new car whilst riding inside percy
and what did she do?
she didn't keep her mouth shut
and now percy's gears dont shift properly
and if i didnt get her serviced
she would probably break down in front of some kampung
and i would've been robbed
just a car my ass la

xL