30 hours a day

can i please up the requisite 24 hours a day to 30?
its only 6 more hours
then i'll have 28 waking hours - due to my demand for an 8 hour sleep
i'll have 28 waking hours to:

1. work my ass off for this campaign - when you think it's alright to breath, then comes another call after another brief after another change after another "its not going to work, L"
2. eat properly - sausage rolls do not constitute lunch
3. figure out the mess i've made with him
4. to go the gym to calm myself down and to put things into perspective
5. see my friends of whom i really need to see now
6. see my family
7. figure out what i want - between the dog hotel, business plans, research proposals & statement of intents its all getting to be a bit much - and no, delaying it doesnt make it any better

vietnam couldn't come at a better time

and especially to you....
there is no point apologizing any more because apologies at this time seem worthless
words dont even make any sense
words wont constitute the band aid for this wound
i cant even offer my time to you because i dont have any
i cant even offer any explanation because what would really make this better?
i know your pain because i've felt it
im frustratedly upset with myself because ive caused it
you ask me to talk to you, but i cant speak when ive got nothing to say
especially when i dont know where to start
something perfect now has become a huge mess
a mess that i have made
you need to know that i love you and they were all foolish mistakes
but that's not the comfort you're after

xL