getting it

after stumbling around for a year
of sleepless nights and fumbling in the dark
& walking around aimlessly without a map
the creation of the war of words
the knives of manipulation and vindictiveness
the arrows of cynicsm and bitterness
the production of hate and despise
the invention of suspicion

this chapter has finally closed

why still search when perfection is within your reach

xL

burnt

ive finally overdone it
over the festive period
im totally exhausted
i have an ulcer on the left side of my mouth
and i only get it when ive over done it
i got it the last week in spain
and im getting it now

THIS SO TOTALLY SUCKS

its like i think i can do it
but my body says no way bitch, it aint gonna happen

FUCK

even my own body wants to go against me
how like this?
*cries*
i need to sleep

i just needed to vent, now carry on

3 more weeks till kemboja
&
hanoi in june with rammers and small eyes
we're gonna conquer the world with air asia :D

xL

we let rip

happy new years my darlings
im finally back at work
after a 4 day legitimate holiday and 2 day bout of bloody food poisoning
i know
i wish it was alcohol poisoning too
at least i would have a bloody good reason to make the toilet my best friend
:)
and today is friday
its really quite sweet isnt it

new years in singapore was fab
consisted of shopping and eating and of course the requisite drinking
im feeling bloated but with 3 pairs of new shoes
so even if im feeling like crap
at least i look good whilst doing so

all my darlings are finally back
its crazy
but there's this psycho kinda chemistry thats made
that we literally feed off each other
we get noisy, inhumane-like remarks are bounced off each other, we become terribly embarassing and socially inept, we basically let down all out boundaries because these are the people we feel the most comfortable with
we put that mask away
its the time where i look around the table and am content, knowing that if this is what life is about, then life is bloody good
i guess the comfort factor lies with the acknowledgement that our friendship isn't time sensitive, that once we return as a whole...this is what we get, no question about it
so i ask you, as a favour to me, to a clean slate to the new year, in respect to the years that we cannot erase.....
look at the big picture and know that whatever wrong was said and done is so miniscule in comparison---to literally try to forgive and forget
and if you can't, then at least you've tried and i'll move along with you
but goddamn, you can't say that the memories aren't sweet

ill see you all this weekend
7ate9 + asian heritage row on friday
small eye's ritual annual bday dinner on saturday

xL