i sing a song, i dance a dance

thank you for the emergency madness session
because the last week has been nothing short of trying
it threw some curveballs that i havent had to face for a long time
but thanks to you, you and you over there, im still standing
and to you, i'll always hold your hand and be by your side
and nothing ever will be too much

although its been trying and depressing and upsetting
i'll take all of it and times it by 3
because whatever he gave me, its worth it
its worth every single tear
and i couldnt be happier that he was once in my life

xL

rest in peace rally

i am beyond wrecked at the moment
and i dont know what to do

its not necessary to elaborate here

im going to miss him so much
especially when he was supposed to come here so soon

just when you think that everything was going alright
god just wants to snatch that fairytale right from under you

what else can you do but hope that he's okay
and that he knew that he was loved as much as he had loved

xL

when shitty times bond

the juno OST is on constant replay on my itunes
its such a chilled out happy
a little like on a substance by the beach, but not
a legally healthy alternative

we sure are cute for two ugly people
i dont see what anyone can see in anyone else but you

i wish i felt that way about someone
like a super simple non complex relationship
based on just adoration for each other, love's too complex
but after our session last night
i realised that im not the only one that faces bullshit
everyone else does, just at different degrees
its comforting to have pillars to lean on without the criticism
i like the support

we both have shiny happy fits of rage
you want more fans, i want more stage
i dont see what anyone can see in anyone else but you

its crappy knowing that life doesnt get any simpler
its like where the fuck is the gratification in getting older
getting older means getting wiser
getting wiser means knowing more
knowing more means more responsibility
not to mention how gravity will eventually be your nemesis
travelling and denial are a fab package

btw: the amazing race video has to be the most highlarious thing ever
ah much love to khadeeds, i wouldnt want to run amok with anyone else

xL

outside the box

my body couldnt take the 5 day week
so it shut down
it gave me a throat infection coupled with a congested nasal passage
so ive been on MC for the last two days
back at work on a friday is a sweet deal
now im trying to figure out how im going to weasel my way out of next week
its not that i hate work
i just like being an unemployed bum more
like following farah around 1 utama buying nose rings
you know, those kind of productive activities

work on the toilets is currently underway
after 8 odd years of living in the place
i finally dont have to take a shower in the bathtub anymore
and rose bought a house, albeit nearby
and is moving out at the end of the year
nice la

xL

holiday-ed out

there are no more holidays in february
and its pretty depressing going back to a 5 day week
i cant even fathom how i managed a 5 day week previously
its all so overwhelming now that im sitting here on a monday morning
i know, its all too dramatic

what happened since i last blogged?

1. we went to club med cherating and fell in love with white chocolate bread, an open bar and a boy named franz who did janet jackson moves better than janet jackson herself.
2. we then proceeded onto club med phuket the next weekend. i know, such jetsetters we are. the white chocolate bread was not up to standard, but instead fell in love with the clearer waters, the men in mankinis, the open bar to makan in the bottle, the girls of patong ;)
3. celebrated CNY with a whole lot of yee sang. im glad it only comes once a year, because it will be too much if it came more than once. ate too much pork, ate too many cookies and left me feeling bloated beyond belief. horded in a whole lot of angpows to compensate though :)
4. have fallen sick due to travelling and working too much, coughing like a 2 pack a day smoker. its bloody ironic since i've managed to sustain a 1-2 stick a day habit now. i sound sexy though with a rough voice
5. having to say bye byeeeee ala olivier to my sister of whom ive grown to like over her 3 month stay. we've bonded over our differences and our confusion over rosebud. yes, its quite sweet really. WHAT NOW?!
6. decided that a new year calls for a new room makeover, starting with the toilet. small eyes, i know you have toilet redecoration expertise
7. have yet to hand in my resignation. lord.
8. have managed to film our amazing race asia audition tape. yup. cross your damn fingers you'll see khadeeds and i on TV this time next year

xL