f.r.i.d.a.y*

*a total whinge post

thank fucking god of all mercy that its friday
if this carried on for another 1 day, i would collapse
im currently running on an average of 3.5 hours of sleep for the last 3 days
ever since i got back from MC
they have worked me to the core
and i am ready to collapse

and i would give anything for a good meal as well
starbucks and a sausage roll does not cut it for me anymore
snacking on roll ups at 10pm just to keep the energy up is not healthy
neither is the constant 'what can we order for dinner ah?'
maccas, pizza hut & dominos are off my palate for the next month

the sickest thing is that i miss my rpm classes
i look like crap cos there is no colour in my face
and i look like death will fall upon me within the next hour
i want to tan but i can't cos i got myself inked
so yeah, my timing with things aint so freaking hawt

however, for those who don't already know ...
i got into my masters for london next year
now i just have to figure out if i want to accept or defer
i know, so painful life choices are, but after this campaign
that will be the only thing on my mind
oh and when to get my tattoo coloured in
its so freaking pretty its crazy GBB

okay. im off to see ah tan aka jimmy aka ah kong aka dvd man
who parks himself in the office to sell DVDs on fridays
we all don't really know his real name
all we know is that he sells DVDs/alcohol/toothbrushes
so im going to find myself some entertainment for tonight
then im going to see the client
then im going home...to my bed....

yes okay, going home really does excite me
:D :D :D

xL

like shit run over twice

the campaign is still not over
but that doesnt fucking matter
cos im at home
suffering from the worst attack of gastric that one could get
and to top it off
im severely bored and its only 12pm
i dont know what im going to do with myself now

and the worst thing is....
stop reading here low shao/pher/boobs
...i have no appetite 0_0
i believe i could entertain myself with ice cream and fast food
but i dont feel it
i just dont
im most depressed with myself at the moment

however, just to update everyone.....
ive got my tattoo and its spankin'
im really in love with it, and everytime i look at it,
my love grows even more :D
maybe its all relative
like how a mother loves a child
i would probably hate that child, but the mother loves it kinda thing
yeah, same difference

im talking shit and i need to go find something to eat
cos if not, according to the good doctor
my stomach lining will be eaten away
and i could get a stomach ulcer
always fun stuff

lowshao- i is missing you and i hope that u're settling in well there!


xL

yup, thats right

not to be rude

but don't contact me unless:
1. someone is dying
2. i contact you
3. it's sunday...actually, there is a longer disclaimer following this

and this message will prevail until september the 21st

why?
1. i have a campaign going on now and really, i dont think that i need to elaborate

and what if you do contact me?
1. prepare for the largest verbal assault you will ever receive - hell yes i'll bring your mother, sister, brother, grandmother and grandfather into it
2. dont expect an apology - you probably dont deserve it

and what if you're bored and alone?
1. MWHAHAHAHAH sorry if i gave off the impression that i cared then

on the other hand - kudos to pher on getting singapore! well done pherminator, you're one step closer to owning a spanking car and condo. triple c's always get the chick my friend
and no, this excitement doesnt mean you can call me

xL

damned if you do; damned if you dont

i actually made it to one year working
it is pretty much exactly a day to the year ago i started
and im still here
sitting at the same desk
doing pretty much the same bloody thing
and i would have assumed that this would have depressed me
but im actually pretty proud that i stayed put for this long
for all it's worth, its going isn't going to look too shabby on paper

now this makes me go through an internal conflict
because now, im done with everything that i need to do by 23
ive done the education - ive got my degree
ive done the work - well im working aren't i
ive halfway done the travel - if i stop now, i wont be at loss
but yet, im still craving the greener side
i cant seem to settle
cos im always wondering the what if's
and the bittersweet-ness of it all is that rose wont hold me back
and besides her, there's no one else i answer to
so i can do what i want to do
but i dont know if thats a good or bad thing, not having boundaries
maybe i need boundaries...but jebus, i'll just break them all
see? its no longer a conflict - its a major internal fucking war

sometimes i think it would be better if i just settle and commit
to one place and build up a good thing there
but as much as i want to
i just cant allow that to happen to me at 23
23! i mean, jebus, i still feel 18
i still feel like i should be running and exploring
rather than sitting still
and look at the ideas that ive been toying with in the last 6 months alone
dog hotel / london / travelling more /
forever bouncing back and forth depending on my mood
dammit la i know how to screw myself over

and this is exactly why i should do this alone
so if i screw up, its only me paying the price for it
___________________________________________

low shao is finally leaving us
after weeks of waiting and holding her breath
she finally gets to fly off this saturday
i cant be anything but happy for her
but...but...who is going to be stupid with me now?
:(
nevermind la, im still going to come low shao
dont you worry your small little eyes
as soon as i settle with a plan, you'll be first to know

xL