lets just back the fuck up

the last week and this week is turning out to be a little of a nuisance to my personal life
out of the nearly 20 months lord have mercy
i worked straight for 24 hours
i hallucinated
i saw stars and not because it was at night
and although i got a pay rise, i just believe it did not justify the suffering
and, to top it off, when i walked out of the shoot at 8am
i saw that my tyre was punctured
of course right, of fucking course

so i passed out on friday night
thought i could hack a back to back rpm & pump session saturday morning
which lead me to passing out all sunday
im still aching
im still working my ass off like work is going out of fashion

its times like these where i just believe its all not fucking worth it
when im craving a holiday where i can just switch off
and not be annoyed by sms-es and calls
and not be pissed off with lame comments with no direction
and not feel like im too exhausted to talk
and not want to kill my direct

i just want to fucking bitch and whine so let me

xL

laughing man V2

yue minjun - untitled

i know that there is already a post about him

but he really is my favourite artist

its like how i can go on and on about john legend

*slight swoon*

there is no doubt that whenever i see his art, he makes me smile

he manages to hit a spot with me

no, not that spot, you filthy animals

rosebud is back

and she spent a good half hour in the early am telling me about it

the words 'karaoke', 'rice wine', 'smoking', 'dancing', 'rasa sayang', 'waltzing matilda', '7 women over 50' & 'drinking games' appeared

right

evidently she knows how to misbehave more than emosaur and i combined

but i hope that when im 50 and done with the dramas

that i'll be up in the mountains of china having the time of my life too

boracay is confirmed

however now with only 5 people

irregardless, that is significantly more than the 3 that went to cambodes

ive decided that even if no one goes,

im going to go

and swim with the sharks and drink cheap beer

and probably learn a litte tagalog along the way

xL

legendary

i think that this dancing spandex clad being is a legend

i am having much trouble staying awake at the moment
i dont know what possessed me to say
'yes, lets do singapore in less than 24 hours'
well fucking done la
but im glad i did it
because it was just great fun at the butter factory
and also cos now i know im a "23 going on 24 year old" hero

what else happened that is deserving to be blogged about?

1. i went paintballing and tested the fight or flight reflex. i believe that i am in the latter category. i am a grade A pussy when it comes to being shot with pellets. the pain isnt fun. the nearly 6 hours of fear in a jungle like war zone in tanamera was not fucking fun. if i ever get recruited in the army, show them this blog. i'll do no justice for my country.

2. we went for sunburst and loved the roots/george clinton/john legend and for the ones who stayed? incubus too. i swooned when john legend came on stage. i dont care if khadeeds thinks that he's a diva, i think he has my heart.

3. we managed to secure a holiday in boracay from the 1st till the 5th of may. we are great. this time is a bigger group of 6 people. i pray that no one comes back dead, that would be a little tragic and possibly halt another group trip.

4. the 24 hour trip to singapore is still fresh in my mind as we left at 4am and here i am at 3pm at my desk typing this out because i cant seem to understand the influx of emails coming in. i see them coming in, i read them, i just dont quite understand what i need to do with them. however, we stayed for about 4 hours in the scarlet hotel, which is fucking sexy. you can walk in and orgasm, its that hot.

5. i think i have my life sorted. but then again, it'll change again next week. so im not blogging about it. but its a good plan this one, well at least i think so...for now

xL

yes, im not that bad

so if you wanna burn yourself, remember that i love you
if you wanna cut yourself, remember that i love you
if you wanna kill yourself, remember that i love you
call me up before you're dead
and we can make some plans instead
send me an IM, i'll be your friend

i got my promotion
and a sweet pay rise
which led to me thinking 'fuckers, how to leave now?'
its hardly unnecessary, but i think i'll stick around for another 6 months
a personal decision
because you cant have someone give you recognition
then throw a resignation letter in their face

so all my plans are now up in the air as, 6 months from now is
september 0.0
i still can make my masters in london
which will be good way to start 2009

we'll see la
always we'll see

we wont stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again
and just pretend that nothing ever happened
- kimya dawson, juno ost

xL

little bird told me so

so here's a quick update as i have been rather occupied with this drama called life

1. we went back to perth to say a goodbye. i doubt that ive ever totally experienced what bittersweet was until this time around. there were tears shed but never asking why it happened but instead, glad he happened to me.
2. the elections came with much fury and we were all holding our breaths. and the outcome was unexpectedly good. now we await with hesitation and hope that it will bring the change that is needed for this country
3. i swore up and down as my second ipod died. sent it back only to be charged RM30 for them to say that the hard drive is fucked and there aint shit i can do about it. i say fuck you mac city one utama....went to perth and paid AUD255 for the new classic 80GB ipod. i know, i swore to say fuck off apple.....but steve jobs convinced me the 3rd time around especially since i saved nearly RM500 on it :) bring on the cina side
4. we are eagerly awaiting kl's biggest music fest of the year, actually, ever. with me eagerly anticipating john legend and the roots. hells yes la
5. am trying my hardest to become an eco warrior. lets start the recycling process and trying not to rape mother earth too much of her resources. ill do a post of what ive been reading and how we can be a little more gratious on our short stay here on this planet
6. am finally sleeping in my own room again :) the renovation for my toilet is done. ive spent the last 2 hours de-cluttering my room and sending all my unwanted, untrendy, unfashionable clothes and accessories to those who need it.
7. have overdosed on easter chocolate. you bitches better come and claim your chocolate soon or else............davemunhussydeedee
8. am stupidly participating in a paintball war with the people i work with. godammit, it sounds like a stupid idea, but we kickbox together too....so i guess if someone wanted me elimated, it should have happened by now la....i guess :)

xL