we're not that different, you and i

argh. my previous posts have been so angry.
cannot.
no.
i will not let work bully me into bitterness although i already do harbour a whole lot of that along with cynicism, anger, hatred, spite, etc (lets not get into it la, we dont have all day).
I think I have to start appreciating things as they are rather than mock it, roll my eyes at it, get pissed off it it, or purely despise it. after all, its only been 2 weeks, how can i start hating that much? imagine me after 2 years...confirm dead.

I will appreciate (for my pure benefit) :
-that my boss is not a slavedriver. he at least understands that we do have a life outside work
-that the people i work with are so nice and put up with all the mistakes that ive been making
-that i make a fair amount for a fresh grad
-that i have not signed my soul over to the devil and therefore am able to do my masters next year (this is what is pulling me through morethan anything)
-that i can pretty much wear what i want to work (okay la, no booty shorts or tops that have my tits hanging out - which pretty much means i have a reason to get a new wardrobe)
-that if things get too stressful i can run downstairs to hang out with people who cheer me up
-that i only have to walk 30 seconds to the stairwell to smoke
-that i have the best sleep ever now considering i do have time to go to the gym after work
-that i have longer than an hour for lunch allowing me to go outside of the area to meet other people, therefore not diminishing my social life

im making this list so if things do turn sour, at least i can look back and not be that much of a hater. its like those lists that cosmo makes you make and repeat in front of a mirror ie. i AM gorgeous, i AM beautiful, all that crap la. i mean, if you are so beautiful then why don't you have a man to love you huh? :)

at least im trying not to hate. lets see some credit

xL