i dont want to be ordinary

so ive encountered major internal conflict this week
it was like internal world war 3
and not like a war with biochemical warfare
the old school bomb kinda thing, so it was prolonged
what an analogy

i am officially announcing that i'll be in kl for 2008 :D
and i didn't want to actually write it here until i told a certain someone
and i told her this morning....
although she found out already, as we know some peoples' mouths are rather big
not that it's a huge thing, but i wanted to tell her myself
-_-
but im pretty content with my decision, irregardless of the conflict
i weighed out the pros and cons and im never one to regret
so even if it turns out to be one of the worst choices ive made
then at least i still have my masters to fall back on and
a trip to europe summer 2008 :D
yeah huh fo sho its still on with a goddamn vengence

work has finally slowed down and thank fuck for that
im halfway there to getting my scuba license
ive already done my theory and i need to do my pool session this weekend
boobs is tremendously happy with this as she now has a buddy
we're off 26th - 28th october to dive off johor
and crossing fingers at the end of november, sipadan

oh and i need to vent big time and where i believe manners should be put aside
i was at RPM challenge yesterday and this dude sat down next to me
and he was there in dreadlocks and a beanie -_-
and this heavy gear (like he's some kinda hip hopper)
and i was like...fo sho this dude is gonna sweat GBB and be all stanky
so i made the decision that i didn't care what he thought
that i deserve to smell non-putrid air laced with BO
so i got off my bike and climbed onto one across the room
i mean...FFS, i already have to endure shitty clients
i do not need to endure stanky people during my personal time

the pavillion and the gardens have opened
more places for us to spend what little money we have after food and alcohol
whooopppeee :D

xL

f.r.i.d.a.y*

*a total whinge post

thank fucking god of all mercy that its friday
if this carried on for another 1 day, i would collapse
im currently running on an average of 3.5 hours of sleep for the last 3 days
ever since i got back from MC
they have worked me to the core
and i am ready to collapse

and i would give anything for a good meal as well
starbucks and a sausage roll does not cut it for me anymore
snacking on roll ups at 10pm just to keep the energy up is not healthy
neither is the constant 'what can we order for dinner ah?'
maccas, pizza hut & dominos are off my palate for the next month

the sickest thing is that i miss my rpm classes
i look like crap cos there is no colour in my face
and i look like death will fall upon me within the next hour
i want to tan but i can't cos i got myself inked
so yeah, my timing with things aint so freaking hawt

however, for those who don't already know ...
i got into my masters for london next year
now i just have to figure out if i want to accept or defer
i know, so painful life choices are, but after this campaign
that will be the only thing on my mind
oh and when to get my tattoo coloured in
its so freaking pretty its crazy GBB

okay. im off to see ah tan aka jimmy aka ah kong aka dvd man
who parks himself in the office to sell DVDs on fridays
we all don't really know his real name
all we know is that he sells DVDs/alcohol/toothbrushes
so im going to find myself some entertainment for tonight
then im going to see the client
then im going home...to my bed....

yes okay, going home really does excite me
:D :D :D

xL

like shit run over twice

the campaign is still not over
but that doesnt fucking matter
cos im at home
suffering from the worst attack of gastric that one could get
and to top it off
im severely bored and its only 12pm
i dont know what im going to do with myself now

and the worst thing is....
stop reading here low shao/pher/boobs
...i have no appetite 0_0
i believe i could entertain myself with ice cream and fast food
but i dont feel it
i just dont
im most depressed with myself at the moment

however, just to update everyone.....
ive got my tattoo and its spankin'
im really in love with it, and everytime i look at it,
my love grows even more :D
maybe its all relative
like how a mother loves a child
i would probably hate that child, but the mother loves it kinda thing
yeah, same difference

im talking shit and i need to go find something to eat
cos if not, according to the good doctor
my stomach lining will be eaten away
and i could get a stomach ulcer
always fun stuff

lowshao- i is missing you and i hope that u're settling in well there!


xL

yup, thats right

not to be rude

but don't contact me unless:
1. someone is dying
2. i contact you
3. it's sunday...actually, there is a longer disclaimer following this

and this message will prevail until september the 21st

why?
1. i have a campaign going on now and really, i dont think that i need to elaborate

and what if you do contact me?
1. prepare for the largest verbal assault you will ever receive - hell yes i'll bring your mother, sister, brother, grandmother and grandfather into it
2. dont expect an apology - you probably dont deserve it

and what if you're bored and alone?
1. MWHAHAHAHAH sorry if i gave off the impression that i cared then

on the other hand - kudos to pher on getting singapore! well done pherminator, you're one step closer to owning a spanking car and condo. triple c's always get the chick my friend
and no, this excitement doesnt mean you can call me

xL

damned if you do; damned if you dont

i actually made it to one year working
it is pretty much exactly a day to the year ago i started
and im still here
sitting at the same desk
doing pretty much the same bloody thing
and i would have assumed that this would have depressed me
but im actually pretty proud that i stayed put for this long
for all it's worth, its going isn't going to look too shabby on paper

now this makes me go through an internal conflict
because now, im done with everything that i need to do by 23
ive done the education - ive got my degree
ive done the work - well im working aren't i
ive halfway done the travel - if i stop now, i wont be at loss
but yet, im still craving the greener side
i cant seem to settle
cos im always wondering the what if's
and the bittersweet-ness of it all is that rose wont hold me back
and besides her, there's no one else i answer to
so i can do what i want to do
but i dont know if thats a good or bad thing, not having boundaries
maybe i need boundaries...but jebus, i'll just break them all
see? its no longer a conflict - its a major internal fucking war

sometimes i think it would be better if i just settle and commit
to one place and build up a good thing there
but as much as i want to
i just cant allow that to happen to me at 23
23! i mean, jebus, i still feel 18
i still feel like i should be running and exploring
rather than sitting still
and look at the ideas that ive been toying with in the last 6 months alone
dog hotel / london / travelling more /
forever bouncing back and forth depending on my mood
dammit la i know how to screw myself over

and this is exactly why i should do this alone
so if i screw up, its only me paying the price for it
___________________________________________

low shao is finally leaving us
after weeks of waiting and holding her breath
she finally gets to fly off this saturday
i cant be anything but happy for her
but...but...who is going to be stupid with me now?
:(
nevermind la, im still going to come low shao
dont you worry your small little eyes
as soon as i settle with a plan, you'll be first to know

xL

try to grow one ball at least

the long weekend is nearly here
4 days off, cos im getting my monday off
4 days of complete self indulgence
4 days of not having to get up at 9am

so they have thrown the concept out of the window
they dont want to infringe on copyright issues
you damned fools, just say you're not brave enough to go with it
that you want to stay in your closed little box forever
that you're not willing to take it to another level
just say it and dont beat around the bush
saying that, im going to come back after my 4 days to hell on earth
so fuck yes im going to enjoy it then

im crazy in love with estranged's itu kamu
thats me supporting the malaysian music scene
oh and along with isaac entry who's voice is really like jack johnson
really wan
serious

ive got nothing to blab about
ive found a new addiction called online shopping
which is really awful because i dont even need to move to spend money
which means, i could just be sitting here and i can go broke
which means, i'll have all these beautiful clothes
and no where to go cos i'll be broke
catch 22 really

the thing told rosebud about her relationship with the stoner
and now rosebud is all flustered because she doesnt know where she went wrong
and has been lecturing me on how not to settle so young
what she doesnt realise
is that its all her fault and that she is really just insulting herself
and im god damn pissed off because she is seriously underestimating us
she might as well be looping us into the same category
as those girls who just slut around and havent even finished their degree
with the hopes of becoming an air stewardess, which is, if you ask me,
is just a prostitute in the air
whatever
respektah to you utilising your vagina to its maximum potential
and may them flaps become so loose you really do fall down that barstool

im off to singapore on friday
to shop and eat and shop and eat and party my life away
all my weeks at the gym
is going to be shot to hell
as im surely going to come back as bloated as a pregnant whale
jesus, what a thought

so selamat hari kemerdekaan to our beloved malaysia
but im off to celebrate it in our neighbouring country

xL

there is no such thing as silver lining

need to vent
my life is over starting last week
im going to have no life till the end of september
and this is the time I chose to be all healthy
to not drink during the week
to detox and be less...umm..toxic
0_0
i know right... shock horror disbelief
who says i dont know perfect timing?

and the best thing is
singapore is confirmed
pher got the act together for us
and tickets are arranged
and jovy is there for accomodation
and i dont even know if i can go

and on top of that
smalleyes is leaving me in aroundabouts 3 weeks
dont go! wait till january 08 and we go together gether
be a friend :)

as so eloquently put, it sucks to be me

xL

the conclusion of santana's maria

im thinking of taking this blog down
i realised that i dont need people to know what im doing all the time
neither do i need to report it all the time
if i needed a cathartic release
i could always just dear diary the motherfucker

so if there are no posts for awhile
you can always just msn or call or sms me
technology is quite amazing nowadays

but before that
a huge thank you
for all the safety nets that all of you have put up around me
i tried them this week and they all worked :)
thanks for listening, thanks for the hugs and thanks for the tissues :)
kleenex must make a killer from break ups
thank you for saying you would be there for me
and thank you for actually being there
thank you for knowing me so well to stop asking when i didnt feel like answering
thank you for sitting by me and holding my hand
i never ever knew that i had this much support
and ironically, i have never felt this loved
thanks to those over the seas, especially you shanti
those little words across the screen never meant so much
and thanks to those nearest to me now
very cliched, but your mere presence comforts me a great deal
especially when we gather with wine and food

so now its time to de-clutter

x L

sweet you rock and sweet you roll

they say karma is a bitch
and hell yes, she is swinging her bat at me hard this time
and now here i am hanging my dirty laundry out
something that i promised myself that i would never do

i know you dont want to talk to me
i know that ive fucked up badly
i know that you're always going to look at me as the one to blame
and ill accept that ive had my share of wrongdoings
but god damn, it still takes two hands to clap in this situation
and you think that i have broken you?
im sitting here, at my desk at 11.30am, about to cry
and i would have never allowed that to happen before
but here i am, all decked out to go in for a presentation
and i cant think about anything else but how this is playing out
you ask me why i always placed you at arms length?
this is why - this is exactly why...so ill never have to crash like this
and here i am crashing like a ton of bricks

so now that it has come to this
where you dont even want to talk to me
where everything you have ever said doesnt seem to matter
because it doesnt hold any strength to your claim
i cant even talk to you because your finger will always be pointing at me
and there are only so many times i can say im sorry
and only so many justifications to be made
before it falls on deaf ears
you hear me tell you that nothing is going on here
and really, nothing is going on here
but somewhere along the line, trust slipped out
and doesnt even think our relationship is worth coming back to

so lo and behold the beginning of the end
id like to try to savour something from this 7 years
but you're not making it easy for me to do so
so now your wish is granted
for us to part where you will walk away blaming me
and ill finally just walk away
because according to you, thats what i do best

you asked for transparency, well here it is, in all her blazing glory
and in my emotional instability
where i make the best of my decisions
im off to london in january
because thats another one of my better traits isnt it?
running away
ive always said that im good at some things and bad at some
so i might as well embrace what im good at at

by the way, if there is anything here you don't understand
please use a dictionary or call someone
but please don't ask any of your friends
as they all seem to be unable to use their brain
to grasp any concept that goes beyond playing someone else's music

xL

unpacking delilah

seriously need to freaking detox
nothing. nada. not a drop of alcohol
we're a horribly disgusting influence upon each other
besides the fact that its slowly deteriorating our kidneys
we're going to be flat broke rather soon
but its fun at the same time....
oh fuck it

thursday: company drink up @ hush; friday: 2 bottles of moscato @ vintry w/pher; saturday: long island jugs @ velvet; sunday: 1 bottle of white @ j&r...
detox session has to start now

its monday morning and its raining
that has to be like god pointing his finger at me and laughing
like its my punishment
as it its not bad enough to get up on a sunny morning
but the offset is that we're watching simpsons:the movie tonight
yaya :D

i had a pot luck at my place on saturday
and we all turned out with the goods
potato salad/fried rice/kfc/maccas/jelly/banana cake
of which smalleyes started an obsessive relationship with
&
1 litre of vodka and pher's maccallans
it was fun cos its been awhile since we all got together
especially with the dancer and actor boyfriend ;)
our own little celebrity couple

which was then progressed onto us splitting up
half to velvet and half to sky/atrium
some say that it was due to miscommunication
id like to blame it on alcohol abuse, okay fine, my own alcohol abuse :)

which then progressed on a rather slow sunday
watching dayve get his 3rd tattoo
and watching myself book for an appointment 0_0
and watching shorty and pher consume another bottle of wine
and watching all of us scoff chili's after that
i watched...mainly cos it was all a little fuzzy and a little exhausting

im finally really enjoying the miracles of wireless
as i have moved coko into my room
blasting amy winehouse and feist via my itunes
im trying to convert my room into a sanctuary of chill
so im off to ikea to buy enough pillows to convert my bed into a day bed
ahhhhhhh

and and and :)
the biggest news is that i went for my interview for masters
and they seemed impressed enough to take me in for 2008
but that would screw up my plans for travelling summer 2008
so now i have to think about things
oh and fill up my application too, and write my statement
but its nice to have that option of 2008/2009
so im pretty happy about that considering i was hungover
so L, how do you strategise your ads at the moment
why should you change the way the ads are executed?
why
why
why
and thank the lords, i managed to come up with somewhat decent answers
the dude seemed pretty impressed
maybe he was hungover too

maybe one day, my dreams will match up with my pay
shaboom shaboom

xL

just because

its times like these
where work isnt too bad
:)

right now?
we're drinking wine and having cakes from just heavenly
&
on thursday is the official company drink up
where we get half of friday off

life really isnt that bad

xL

blah

its monday and the rain hasn't stopped since yesterday morning
and all i wanted to do today was stay in bed
but no
im here at work
it is 4.39pm
i get to leave soon

the weekend was nicely chilled out
on friday, the chocolate buffet was nice and not overly done
i was a little suspicious of the chocolate and scallops
but the chocolate sauced beef was pretty yum
and of course the hot chocolate that was done properly
- you know, melt the bits of chocolate andden pour in the milk kind-
:D
that was satisfying

and on saturday we hit up an balinese restaurant called bora asmara
that was so gorgeous
like, if i wanted a low key wedding, i would have it there
it's so pretttttyyy
the only thing is that the food well sucked
and there was no alcohol to numb my pain of starvation
but there was no black tie after that :)
and it was so nicely chilled out
it was like "ahhhhh"
and there was wine....
of which we decided if chianti is on the list, we order that, no argument

other than that, the weekend was nice and relaxing
of which i spent sunday with su who's back from london
who is making shitloads of money
and the low family at night who adopted me for dinner
because rose abandoned me
i want to go to london and make money and be supremely happy with materialistic goods
but i could never ever work in investment banking
ew

the month is nearly over
i is going to get paid
and going to make myself happy by spending it on something stupid
andden be broke again for the remainding 3 weeks of the month
smart...really smart

xL

a bit of this and a bit of that

another 2.5 more hours until the highly anticipated much needed weeekend :D
noice
and i have big big plans
of sleeping and overindulging
im kinda wondering why im so freaking tired
and ive put it down to
watching transformers and harry potter on monday and tuesday night
as everything else was so not out of the ordinary
i was contemplating the gym this evening
and then i was like, its okay not to be too ambitious

transformers was freaking excellently fantastic
i think my mouth was like gaping open the whole time
i was such a geek for like 2.5 hours
and harry potter was alright too
but im biased and will forever be entertained by the pothead
he's getting a little emo
but a bitchslap here and there will put him back into place

my sister - see, ive matured and decided to personalise her
has left the country back to her motherland of weed and laziness
but not after rose creating mass havoc in klia for overbooking and
pushing her onto a later flight
MAS is a piece of shit
malaysia seriously cannot boleh with idiots like that
damned complacent fools
visit malaysia 2007 isnt working out very well now is it

im going to entertain my stomach later and OD on chocolate at the hilton :)
oh yums
a whole buffet....of chocolate
im going to get diabetes but thats okay
no pain no gain

and tomorrow night, we're going to no black tie
just because we dont feel velvet anymore
and thats why i love kl
cos if you are ever sick of one genre of entertainment, there is another to hop along to
either that or something new opens every 3 months
so you're guaranteed to never be terribly bored

however, im kinda tempted to just go into lockdown this weekend and read :D
ooooo big big big geek
i just found the most entertaining writer
and true to my word, it aint chick lit
his name is jasper fforde - double 'f's
and i just read the fourth bear
and its about nursery rhyme crimes
so evidently this one had to do with goldilocks and the 3 bears
its absolutely hilarious and i swear he is on drugs
i love it when creative ppl are on drugs
they come up with amazing shit

and another is haruki murakami
and he's just a beautiful writer
he just sees all these normal feelings that people feel in such a different light
its a little depressing and sometimes you do wish that they would just commit suicide
but he's amazing nonetheless
and the best thing is, its all translated as he writes in japanese
so it would be amazing to know japanese and read it the way he originally wrote it

wargh okay im blabbling on
i have no work at work and im writing shit
pherminator says i need to get a job
he's just jealous of my 3 hour lunches and dvd sessions
pfft

percy's at the doctors now
i told rose not to talk about getting a new car whilst riding inside percy
and what did she do?
she didn't keep her mouth shut
and now percy's gears dont shift properly
and if i didnt get her serviced
she would probably break down in front of some kampung
and i would've been robbed
just a car my ass la

xL

jebus

two things got my blood running this week:

1. the david/victoria beckham photos for w magazine
oh my god, they are so hot can die man
besides the fact that his ass looks damn hot in tighty whiteys
... they both just look damn good
no wonder she didnt dump his ass
i wouldnt want to dump that piece of arm candy either
and even though they aren't textbook good looking
they are somehow really quite attractive

2. bruce willis in diehard4
he just looks damn good for his age man
i mean, seriously....richard gere cannot compete
and i know im going to get hammered for this
but neither can sean connery -_-
you should see the photos of him in vanity fair
of him in a sarong and a fedora
jebus
and another one of him just fishing
whilst demi is on ashton's lap next to him
and he doesnt seem like he could give a fuck
class i tell you
i would put up the photos, but i only have the magazine
and if i scanned them in, i'll probably be sued for unrightful distribution

ive been supremely bored at work
there is nothing going on
to the extent where i dread getting up
cos i know im going to work, to be faced with...nothing
bah
pher is back from shanghai
and didnt bring back a bride
ah well, our expectations for that happening werent that high

smalleyes completed the hanoi video
which she is trying unsuccessfully to load onto her website
its basically 20 minutes of rammers, smalleyes and i doing downright stupid things
and saying even stupider things
i hope this video wont come back to haunt us
especially the karaoke to vietnamese folk song bit
-_-
dammit

and to top off a damn unproductive week
ive turned into a facebook whore
sue me - im merely playing in to the hands of the internet gods
im not worthy im not worthy im not worthy

xL

blase and burnt

got back from redang yesterday
and it was bliss
i hung out with nemo whilst scuba diving
and jumped off the boat whilst snorkelling
the food stank but the blue waters made up for it
not as 'shiok' as hanoi but it did the job :D

decided with rosebud on the trip
that maybe i wont do my masters next year
altho she eagerly wants me to be gone when small eyes goes
something about good influence and grounding
-_-
sure or not?
she just doesnt know about the miss china incidents

so ive decided to backpack this time next year in europe
summer 08
and ive already planned to be in germany in july for the love parade
and valencia at the end of august for the tomato fest
and of course netherlands in between for lea :)
and switzerland to see the kindest soul born on the same day as me
and morocco to see what kind of happiness they have to offer
and croatia to lie on their part of the adriatic coast
and monaco just to see all her unadulterated wealth on display
and belgium for her chocolates
and helsinki just to say that ive been there
and there will be a few more stops in between portugal, ireland, greece!
and of course, to salute the spanish sun in barcelona with 1 euro bottles of cava

im crossing my fingers that this will pull through
as much of my impending happiness lies upon this
cos god damn, this is the only thing pulling me through at the moment
the dog hotel will just have to wait as rose wants me to do this
before i have to settle in kl and commit....jesus christ

its july now, i have 10 months to save and 10 months to plan
jesus
im seriously ambitious

xL

a pinch and a punch

my life has been mundane since hanoi
nothing fab has happened
the only exciting thing was that i went to the doctor
after 4 days of diarrhoea and 2 days of a splitting migraine
he told me that i could possibly have a mild case of cholera
whatever 3rd world disease that is la
im better now so you can stop worrying :D

work has been crazy slow
which is good cos all we have been doing is watching dvds
and going on super long lunches that last 3.5 hours
we're going to try to break that record tomorrow and make it 4

i finally got my own parking spot
im super lucky cos i was there when my production manager decided he didnt want it
and i was jumping up and down like a buffoon crying that i wanted it
so now i have it, RM550 later
noice

im off to redang this weekend at rosebud's weak attempt of family bonding
yaya sun&sea :)
i appreciate it, i just dont appreciate the thing i have to go with
some may call her my sister
but as far as im concerned, she's the thing
until further notice of when i decide to personalise it

cigarette prices are up by 60sens
it may be fine time i quit
but then i think...
damn it L, you paid almost $10 in melbourne
what is 8 ringgit?
its times like this, i should stop talking to myself

i was on MC at home yesterday and i have to say...
it was the most deathly boring day of my life
there is only so much tv you can watch
and the computer screen gives me migraines
so i sat there.....
for a good 6 hours
watching mindless astro
from e to axn to hbo to mtv to star
warrrggghhhhh

the only good thing i learned was after watching david blaine's drowned alive
was to never attempt to submerge yourself in water for 7 days
as the skin on your hands and feet get super ugly man
ew
i guess i'll be scrapping that off my things to do before 30 list

so thats it
my life is officially mundane and boring and routined
maybe this is what life is supposed to be like if you're not working on a campaign
i have to say, after 3 months working my ass off every single day
when it stops
i feel unproductive and purposeless

wargh

i may be a workaholic
0_0

xL

:D

it was crazy fun
i dont think ive felt this fab in such a long time
and it was so satisfying
because it seemed to have fulfilled a few things
that were kinda missing
and just needed that little top up :D
so i was def most happy

so we managed to...
eat pho but rammers and i still cant pronounce it
sleep with 8 other people in a dorm
shower every day cos.we.were.stanky.and.sticky :D loved that
get cultured when hanging out with uncle ho at the museum
get clothes made
watch the water puppets
get cheated and abused by an angry cab driving motherfuckingso&so
meet great people :D much love for them
see halong bay and revel in her beauty and her silence
jump off a junk boat
karaoke-d destroying halong's silence ;) OBLADI OBLADAAAA
have an australian sausage sizzle!
concede that the luxe guide has bad energy
*interlude - have a good time!*
eat fanny ice cream
eat bun cha - which was the most amazing dish ever - sigh
meet T.R.O.U.N.G - hellloooo troung
kayak - smalleyes and i 'relaxed' therefore being the slowest ones there and back
persuade miss china out of seclusion
see a real life beavis who personified loser to the T
eat at the green tangerine which was like a party in your mouth french style
make it all priceless
shove all our purchases into our luggage at the end of the day
have crazily fab moments

i wish i rode a motorcycle though as that would have been crazy fool of me
i loved hanoi more than cambods
cambods was fab if you wanted to be lazy
as she allowed you to do what you wanted, when you wanted
but hanoi was like an untamed creature
who didn't want to listen to what you wanted
but that made you like her even more
werl

the 3 photographers got amazing shots
some of them so postcard worthy and they were worth the
"waiiitttt laaaa..taking photo weiiiii..eh, come on la...FINE LA OKAY, YOU GO FIRST"
&
"so right, the apature and exposure time..the lighting is not that good ah"
but they didnt overstep it that much anyways
we now have a photo diary of what we did - with countless animated jifs
and smalleyes & rammers even video diaried it too
so we managed to capture great moments
thankew guys for making it such a fab trip :D

and last but not least, i had a boy fall in love with me
where he proclaimed his love in less than 24 hours
and asked me to be his girlfriend in less than 3
he deemed i was worthy after i told him i like the red spiderman more
and when we laid on the deck chair counting stars
his name was alexander ; he was 5; and his mother was watching at all times ;)

i loved hanoi
& i cant wait for pai in september/november :D
this nipped the travel bug in the ass for a little while
but im still craving and planning for THAT trip
where i'll pack up and leave
and wont know where im going till i get there
and i dont know when i'll get back
to get lost and to wake up in a new city every so often
now that is what i call fabulous

cos.....
think what.......SKED AH?
:D

xL

hasta mañana fools

we are leaving tomorrow
and i know that we're not travelling far and wide
and not into the deepest depths of the earth
but thats okay
we are leaving tomorrow :D

and for those who know all the stress that's been going on
this is a well deserved break that couldnt come at a better time
i can actually feel my skin taut up and my wrinkles fade away :D
its nice to pack up and leave...
to leave the job reqs
to leave the constant play of emo alternative music
to leave the constant phone calls about work
to leave the same ol' same ol'
to leave it for a little while

its a little like me to pack up and leave when things get heavy

when things get a little too much

and i suddenly suffer from claustrophobia

i dont really buckle under pressure

but sometimes

there is this monotonous weight that you carry

and no matter what you do, you cant rid of it

xL

prisoned by technology

a very belated happeeburfday our dear hapsaps
who will be back at the end of the week
of whom we will inhale chikin pies with during the day
and ramlees during the nite
of secret escapades for hokkien mee
and berjogeting and getting happily high with long islands
yaya woman, the kl peeps are happy to embrace u back!

download want you to know by the freelance hellraisers
because im in advertising
i fall for great advertising
and sony ericsson has done a fab job of making me feel all soft and gooey and warm
with their ads
so i download their theme song off the net for free
i am a pirate :D

hanoi in 2 weeks :D
its gonna be fabulous cos we're gonna eat and drink....
oh OOPS
i will drink
i will smoke
all alone
whilst the photographers try to capture
the best light and bla bla bla
whatever la
trust me to go on a trip with 3 ppl that
dont drink & dont smoke
yes, god will embrace you with open arms whilst slamming that gold gate in my face

work has been really horrible
its been the worst it has ever been
its throwing up crap that i never knew could exist
of stupid changes and remarks where u're left to ponder their existence of a brain
their challenges to understand their briefs
ive officially become a slave to work
i checked my e-mails on the weekend, thinking it would save me the shock on monday
instead it made me blahed on a saturday
boohoohoohooohoo
although, i think ive managed to prove myself
that i can withstand more than i thought i could
which leaves my boss to thinking im crazily efficient
which could be interpreted either way
we'll just have to see

2 more weeks..................................
time has never passed this slow-ly
its monday
ew

xL

kampung-ing it up

we went whitewater rafting today
and it was fab :D
drove all the way to gopeng, near ipoh starting at 7.45 am but it was all worth it
we got drenched
we capsized
we shaked
we 1 2-ed
smalleyes wanted a kampung goreng pisang
i wanted frequency on the radio
we came back without a shoe and a pair of pradas
but we came back happy
next stop : kkb cos its more hardcore :D

want you to know you can make me happy
want you to know you make me sad


xL