it's not all black and white

so im seriously believing in fate now
after all my hesitations and according to some, pure paranoia
i got a call yesterday
in effect, it alleviated every single worry rushing through my mind
well, not 100% but it was a big step forward
and it happened right smack in the middle of me thinking about it
so holy shit right?

im not blogging about it because im not going to jinx it
and fucked if i want to jinx this like every other good thing in my life

im not being overly dramatic here
it is a serious act of fate, or some other energy
or maybe what they wrote in the secret holds true?
or maybe this is what happens when you start taking responsibility?

this is pretty exciting so im going to hold my breath
really
until my face turns blue and explodes into a million pieces
i will

"Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need" - grey's anatomy

xL