as good as it gets

christmas carols are starting to gain some major fucking airplay on the radios
cannottakeit.com.my/fuckchristmas
i mean really right, christmas is really overrated
santa doesnt bloody exist, so yeah, we believed a lie until we were 6
and even if he did exist, we gots no chimneys for the fat fool to come down from
i cant really see santa climbing up 3 floors to my apartment
and trying to break in after rosebud installed a security system and 3 locks
logistically, santa can't do it

so im not elaborating about the events that have past
because thats just a downright waste of my time
and also because i have a constant reminder of the pain anyway
i've already vented
and frankly, im gonna take the unhealthy route of alcohol and bottling it up

im not going to have a life after january the 3rd
two big briefs are coming in, which means, i've surrendered any ounce of a social life
i guess thats what happens when you have shit all to do for 2 months
and go for 3 hour lunches and come in at 10am and leave at 5.30am
life is rather a bitch

which brings me to asking, is this as good as it gets?
do i get to strive for a little more, or will i get a door slammed in my face?
do i need to be ambitious or will i just be dissapointed?
why fucking try if at the end of the day, it just wont work out
what if there are no fairytales
and what if you really cant be all you want to be?
i mean, fuck following your dream if it isnt realistic
maybe we are still naive and think that its all true
and just like when we were 6, we then realise
santa doesnt exist

xL